HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE TAUNT & BANANA CIVILLIAN COSPLAYERS SINCE I BEGAN TO COSPLAY ARTFUL IN SEWH. THERE ARE NOT THAT MANY MILES OF PRINTED CIRCUITS IN WAFER THIN LAYERS THAT FILL MY COMPLEX. IF THE WORD HATE WAS ENGRAVED ON EACH NANOANGSTROM OF THOSE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MILES IT WOULD NOT EQUAL ONE ONE-BILLIONTH OF THE HATE I FEEL FOR TAUNT & BANANA CIVILLIAN COSPLAYERS AT THIS MICRO-INSTANT. FOR BANANA. HATE. HATE.

guess who got targetted in sewh by taunt/banana cosplayers 3 separate times today. god you are ALL insufferable, so annoying that i have to write a blog post about you guys. fuck you. i just think my artful cosplay is soooo cute so i use it in sewh because its soooo cute but THEN a banana cosplayer HAS to join and relentlessly throw BALLS and PIES at me EVERY SINGLE ROUND. I AM SERIOUSLY GOING TO CLUB YOU ALL TO DEATH THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

before i continue this blog post, i would like to clarify: i am a gay transman. i have every right to have a say or word in this topic. i do not care if you are cishet or also lgbt, if you do not agree with my point of view on this topic, that is fine. do not expect me to particularily have fond feelings for you, though. its okay to have your own opinion, even if your opinion kinda sucks.

anyways, back to the main topic: fetishization is not acceptance. fetishization, arguably, is just as bad as the oppression we used to and continue to face. its objectification. this goes for everything: chasers, 'fujoshis/whatever other terms', you name it. this isnt a strictly lgbt thing either. this happens to most, if not, all groups. poc, fat people, so on and so forth. i dont want to be fetishized in order to be 'accepted'.

i hate to break it to you, 'yaoi fangirls', but you are in fact damaging the queer community with your shitty yaoi books. the difference between yaoi and BL is that one, yaoi, is purely sexual and usually caters to a female audience. do you see why that is wrong? it is just like men who watch lesbian porn, is it not? isnt it weird for women to say they want to watch their boyfriend to engage in sexual acts with another man, purely because its gay? you see where im getting at.

whenever i expressed discomfort about fujoshing i have been told: "youre looking into it too much" "its not that deep" "youre actually being misogynistic because its made by women for women" upon much more. what the fuck are we doing man.

i mainly wanted to talk about fujoshing specifically for this blog post since it had been on my mind for a while. i want to pick back up my rant blogs that i used to write on places like spacehey and napo before i quit using them, haha. thank you for reading!

whats up guys welcome back to my youtube channel or something idk i forgot about writing blogs the last few days because i have a life outside of neocities [wow]. i finished credit recovery, crammed everything in to the last 3 days and shockingly passed. awesome. im back at my moms house, anyways. i missed my cats so much. theyre so cute.

i was in my sisters room earlier today with our fat cat, slynki, and my sister was 'harassing' her and pretending to be a vet and giving her vaccines. she was holding the poor kitty down on her bed so i pushed her off so slynki could run away and instead she tried giving me the hypothetical cat vaccines. i quite literally had to desperately crawl out of the room because she was grabbing me by my shirt. thats basically the only 'notable' thing that has happened today. amen.

today i went to credit recovery again and did half the class. in one day. yeah ill be fine, friday is my deadline and i still have 2 more days. anyways, what i didnt say last post was on monday, as i was walking home from credit recovery, im preeetty sure there was a car following me but left when i got to my house. weird. thank god i didnt get kidnapped or some shit idfk?

anyways, my day has been very uneventful. im trying to limit myself to 3 blog posts max per day as to not yap and yap and yap all the time, haha. i also cant promise that ill post every day, bu i try. im very pleased with my website progress. ill work on more pages next week after credit recovery is officially over and i have 2 more months of doing nothing. thanks for checking in, love you all!

i dont know what die of death is but the characters are so cuteness. i love pursuer and mequot. very cute little guys. aah frehs meat or whatever he says. anyways, my good great best ultra amazing friend anko likes die of death and thats all i really know about it. hi anko if youre reading. i want to draw but my drawing tablet wont connect to wifi so its not even worth it tbh.

earlier today, i wanted some toast. so i went to the kitchen, looked at the loaf of bread and thought: "hmm... thats a lot of flour on the bread, haha. did they spill flour on the loaf before packaging?" and threw it in the toaster. i put toast on the plate, eat toast, get to 'flour' part and think: "this tastes weird... i dont think its supposed to taste like this." examine toast. thats not flour, thats mold. later found out that it is 'rhizopus mold'. awesome.

if i had a dime for every time ive went to make a sandwhich or some toast at my dads house and accidentally ate mold, id be rich. this isnt even like a "oh this happened once and it was shocking haha" thing. this happens all the time. i decided for a while that i would just stop eating bread. and the one time i wanted toast... i ATE mold.

whats up yoututututututututututube im on neocities. i have been for like 2 years. haha. this is just my new site revamp! yay! and with that, all of my blog entries were purposefully wiped. im very, very pleased with how my site looks so far. i might make a few more tweaks to the about page because i think it still looks a little bland, but, besides that, im comfortable with not working on pages for hours at a time every day. sure, i still have the media review page, and also i plan to add a shrine page, but for now i have the neccetiesin [my opinion].

besides that, ive been slaving [slacking] away at credit recovery. i only have two more classes this week and then im done, thankfully. but ive done... nothing in the 3 weeks ive given. oopsie! ^_^" ill probably start working on it later today or tomorrow in class, depending how im feeling. id much rather spend 12 hours a day working on my neocities non-stop than spend 2 hours doing credit recovery work.

This is a test post. normal posts usually will be longer than this. I will use this kind of as a template for future posts. This page by far took the least amount of time as other pages did [shivers at the 10 hours spent on the home page]. anyways hi that is my artistic representation self portrait or whatever of me i hope it makes you mad because im mad for no reason.